.Saturday, March 7, 2009 ' 10:36 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
watched marley and me with baby that day... been a long time since i cried while watching movie outside... :x it really remind me of my dogs... snoopy and baby... =/ so alike to snoopys life... =( i miss them... i really do... and i have totally no idea how heart break i will be if one day disney going to be gone... =( i know this day would happen... but i really wish this wouldnt... naive thinking i have again... =/ oh well...
dear disney... i promise you... i will take a very good care of you... and your offspring if theres any... =) you will always be in my heart and will be deeper than snoopy and baby... cause you are such a lovely ones from the day you were born and came into my life... i love you bao bei~ =)went town with baby to see her photos at the noise singapore thing that day as well as to science centre for a saturn watch... though im a super noob in photography... i enjoyed myself a lot with baby that day... =) cause everything is so sweet... despite some arguement we had... -.- and hmmm ya... i enjoyed myself because of babys company her explaination to me about her photography thing and get to see a lot of graphics... baby say i have something to graphics... haha... and its so true... ^^ and everyday baby is learning something new about me? hmmm... i guess so... haha... hopefully her voted photo will get into the top and win the prize... ^^ and shes leaving soon to japan in another 24 hour time? =( and 1 week without seeing her... argh~ im going to die... :x
dear baby... i hope you will enjoy your japan trip alright? ^^ and enjoyed my company so far... good or bad... up and down...had a so call heart to heart and serious talk with aunty iris this afternoon... about relationships... to love... to mummy and to people... learn about how i should handle all this... how to make things work... etc etc... we had a long 2-3 hours talk... lols! amazingly... cause in this talk i found a lot of solutions to all this hmmm... problematic relationships? and found out a lot about all this relationship... maybe this 1 week of leaving... is a right timing thing... and hopefully after this 1 week... everything can really be start afresh... a different me... a i dont know? more mature me? knowing how to handle thing how to do things at the right time etc...
dear baby... i hope you wouldnt misunderstand it... cause i feel that this 1 week is a good time a good thing for us or maybe just me to hmmm... think through things... yes maybe its a cold war... but a good cold war so that we can walk further together in this relationship... because i love you... =) i want things to work out and not energy drain at the end of the day... hopefully a different me will appear in front of you... which is a good thing i feel? dear mummy... i dont know if staying here at aunty iris house will really make our relationship better or not... but at least i hope after staying here... you can really know what im thinking... my feeling... etc... i know its hard for the both of us... but mummy... i will try... i really will... cause i understand... i really do understand that... you are the only kin person i have... cause of the family im born in... this... is fate... my destiny... p.s: happy birthday to wanxuan (20) and michelle (21)... =)
2p.s: health is deteriorating... i know it well... =/
3p.s: baby i love you...
last p.s: disney i love you...
