.Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 8:03 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
been a week since i last update my blog... have been very lazy... :x spend my time with baby on monday... =) things are very sweet... but we couldnt spend our 7th month anniversary together because of her aunt visit... =( suppose to have a late 7th month anniversary together... but we fought... =/
saturday went lans with baby and her friends at serangoon... but because we fought before that and on friday... we didnt talk much... glad that things are better at night when we reach ang mo kio... had our dinner there... and movie later at town... spend our time at esplanade... till morning then send baby to work... but our fight continues...
sleep throughout today because eric didnt reply me if he is going for fyp... -.- damn him seriously... i couldnt work it out myself and i seriously need his help... argh... dont know whats wrong with him... but i hope we can complete it on time as im starting work soon... i hope i can really cope studies and work at the same time... as well as relationships... i dont want to have a bad record for my new visa card just because i dont have money to pay the bank... =/
despite sleeping throughout... i got a lot of stupid nightmare... just like yesterday when i dreamt of that bitch... -.- but today is a lot more... first is dream inside the dream... and i dreamt of people that i never dreamt before... people like my secondary school classmates and celine jie which the last time i dreamt of her was during my secondary school days... after that i dreamt of von... how she left me for another guy... and i dreamt of baby... im going crazy seriously... because of nightmares... because of fights... no more energy is left... no more... ... ...
when the fought between us begin like everyday... feelings started to fade... i thought you will do something about it instead of fighting with me again... disappointment filled deep in me... the 3rd girl and girl relationship i have... the 3nd time i regret... 1st regret being with that bitch cause i dont love her at all... 2nd regret pushing von away even though i love her... and 3rd regret for you because i love you but never expect you to be like this... i dont know what i can do... but to wish that we can work thing out right... i hope somedays later feeling for you will be like before... cause we sorted everything cleared our misunderstanding and stop quarreling over silly matters...
