.Sunday, June 14, 2009 ' 2:04 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
things have been going down for me... imh... police case... breaking up... losing
you... work... fyp... but i know its all because of my actions my doing... i have got no one to blame but myself...
imh is settled... police case is closed... fyp going on smoothly... work still trying to manage it... but the breaking up and losing
you... i cant handle it... i cant take it... i cant turn back the time for all my wrong doing...
im trying... im doing... all the changes and effort i have to do it... but its late... too late... to have
you back at my side... im losing
you to the time and to that someone out there... theres no more time... no more chance... i cant regret cause theres no more time for me to regret... theres no more chance to prove to
you that im doing all my best to have
you back... no... no... no more...
i cant explain how much
you mean to me... i cant find a way to explain it... explain everything... i cant... someone out there please... lie to me that everything is not too late or you two still can be together... or wake me up by telling me that its time to let go and wish her happy... or please someone out there... guide me along will you? i dont want to lose
her anymore... or... i only can wish that miracle will happen soon?
to
you:
i love you... i really love you so much that i lose myself... everything and everyday is all about you... its true... and im losing you...
what else can i do for you? all the time i have been trying learning and making the effort... but no... it doesnt work anymore...
p.s: what should i do? to let go so that
she can find the one that can make
her happy or to hold on when i cant figure out at this point of time what else i can do?
