its not the first time tears flow when im doing an update... i wonder... when will be the last time... im tired... i tried... everytime when i wish to see you smile... its either you or me will cry...

im not trying to gain any sympathy or spiral down... its just that i cant find anyone who can understand this situation im in... neither can i find someone to talk to cry to or hug when i needed one... last time when i have you by my side... i dont know how... maybe its just me... my ego... my strong upfront... i thought i can make you happy... but i cant... i cant.... and thats why im losing you...

if this is the kind of punishment or test you want me to go through or to understand how and what you have been going through... please... dont do this to me anymore... its far too much for me to handle... dont torture me anymore... please dont be so harsh to me anymore... im really not as strong as you think im... but i have got no choice but to act and fake out this strong side of me... its not just because of you... but because of the environment that i grow up in...

its hurting... really very hurting... everything is bleeding... non-stop flowing... ... ...

xiaobee/alfred
25/11/88
single

bicycle
cameron highland trip
cigarette case
class 3 licence
digital camera/DSLR
diploma in biotechnology
genting trip
home & room of my own
hongkong trip
improve drinking
more bottom
more ear stud
more money
more shoes
more time
more tongue stud
more top
nds
new bag
new wallet
sports attire
to be happy
volkswagen beatle
watches
zippo

angela yang aka 杨老师
dashimon
eionn aka donkey
eionn aka donkey shop
felicia aka xiaolaopo
jasmine
liling aka doudou
michelle aka mic
michelle
pauline aka porpor
pearline
qingwen aka wen meimei
shanling
wanxuan aka xuan
weiqi aka vicky