.Tuesday, June 23, 2009 ' 3:11 AM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
went changi after meeting my mummy for breakfast to see twins-sa on saturday... xD the whole of us-TAS went nuts due to the chasing... cheering and crapping... LOLS! enjoyed myself with them as usual... all the chasing of twins and concert and outing... =)
meet girl after that... went amk hub to watch drag me to hell... xD haha... girl was so scare!!! and shes still the one suggesting... lols... wanted to go for another movie... :x but then in the end didnt... spend our night together though... xD been so long since we can spend the night together... i miss it a lot and cherish a lot that night... =/
part in the morning... everything still so sweet... =p i dont wish this to be just for the night really... but i know the reality of it... went tampines 1 to meet with TAS... camped... do a card for twins-sa... and group photos... cheering... etc... xD enjoyed myself lots... especially on sundays event... cause when taking the group photo... IM JUST BEHIND SA!!! MY GOD!!! SSOO DDAAMMNN CCLLOOSSEE!!! like 1cm away nia!!! wahahaha... but then went work after that... T.T
work was still ok... not very enjoyed though cause come in nia ruz mama start to question me about the OT and work... =( but work over all still ok... manageable... =)
today wake up very early and i was surprise... lols! but i didnt go school... :x cause got a lot of things to do... like call up agents regarding renting of whole unit... reading up on FYP... thinking through stuff... what is it that i need to do... etc... basically just finanace... studies... relationship... family and future... =(
glad that at this point of my life when things are so difficult and hard for me... when its at the lowest point of my life... i have friend that can help me to pull through my life like jobina... at this point of time... the coldest of life and the harsh and cruel reality i avoided and now going through... i found warm... and all the need of a friend... really very appreciate to friends that guide me along... pull me through and there for me... thank you... really... be it i can make it through and grow up being more mature out of it or not... i sincerly thanks you all for everything that you all been through with me...
but... at the point of time... and of course right now... i really wish and hope that
you are here going through all this with me... standing by me... staying with me... be there for me... before
you told me off and asked me to fuck off... and i dont know? maybe leave with someone else... i know i have to do things that i dont like... will feel sad... will hurt... etc... so that im behaving more mature and in a way that i can bring
you happiness in some ways... and right now i cant stop
you... i cant force
you... i dont have the rights to ask
you to stay going through all this hardship with me... neither do i bear to... i know... thats why i dont have the guts and rights to let
you know how much i need
you... how much i love
you... right now at this point of time... i dont dare at all... =/
im tired... and have no more spare energy on all this issue that im facing... cause i cant run... i cant avoid... and i have to bear all... i dont wish to give up... especially after that jobina send me... you cant change yesterday but you can do better from today... which is true... so true... i hope thinking of
you is my another form of motivation to carry on with all this im going through though im alone including the thought of being with
you again is never or allow to go through
you...
