.Thursday, July 23, 2009 ' 1:00 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
fever finally went down since yesterday... now left with cough... sore throat and flu... heng fever went down... if not have to go for blood test... =/ scare me...
couldnt really sleep yesterday... after
she told me that
she at butter... reminds me of a lot of things... the first time i go clubbing with
her... the first time
she came over my house to stay... the first time we had intimacy... etc... i couldnt help but still cry every morning when wake up and every night before sleep... and for yesterday its not just because of the worry i have for
her... but also todays meeting makes me very nervous... i dont know what i can do to make
her happy... hai... i seriously still love
her... still want to get back with
her... but i dont know what i can do...
just now
she sms me using his number... i... feel the pain in my heart and the lost... not because we might not be meeting today but...
she at his house the whole night... i couldnt help but to think what have happen the whole night when
she is drank... they... together le mah?
she happy with him mah?
she forget me le mah? have i really lost
her... i couldnt help but cry... even till now... the tears just couldnt stop flowing... couldnt at all... its all because of my own doing that i lost
her... i really regret a lot... and i dont know how can i prove it to
her... i really dont...
i never felt such a pain in my heart when loving someone... never cried for someone everyday... never thought i will do so much for someone i loved... do
you... feel it? or im just nothing to
you already...
