.Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ' 1:54 AM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
had nightmare when i fall a sleep today morning... the same scene that i had the last night... yes last night... i made the worst decision of meeting
her after my work... i shouldnt have really shouldnt have... i really regret going down...
once again... after the meet... i sink in deeper than before... i begin to lose my clear mind... i lose myself... the battle between devil and angel... i dont know who should be the one survive... cause... in front of
her angel is always the one winning and devil is always the one that is being stubborn... never want to die... =( i dont know... seriously... how to allow both the devil and angel work things out peacefully... i dont...
wake up... i cried again... and the devil inside me unleash... they fight so fiercely... and the way to stop is me who bleeds... the cut after so long... finally ease the conflict...
went work with a walnut eyes... and the wounds that bleeds physically... emotionally and mentally... =/ wanted to take oil leave... but have to plan in advance... thus cant take that... miki suggest me to take a break till 6 then see how then go work... listened... but doenst seem to work... cause i broke down once again at smoking area at night... but im glad that zul really talk to me a lot... and justin that black pig who entertain me... =) oh forget to say also fiza that can talk about everything with... =) also the cigarette by miki... =p work is not enjoying but the people is... this i swear... with all the loves and crap and ya... =) if i were to get terminated i swear i will be sad for this cause i love the people there really... despite the politics... =/
p.s: the conflict between angel and devil... who should survive who should perish?
2p.s: the unleash devil... should be facing
you or the mask or angel...
3p.s: the wait... i wish to know the ending... worth or worthless... =/ the love... blinded me very long...
last p.s: my love... your love... this love... it hurts...
