.Saturday, August 22, 2009 ' 6:49 AM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
woke up by a erm... nightmare? sweet dream? i dont know! but difinately a weird one... dream of miki again :X and eneida... -.- haha... a bit wish that dream is real? :x LOLS! cause it will be rather drama... but at the same time... :x i get what i want... :x
anyway another reason for me to wake up early is because i thought i had a UT at 830 which turn out to be 11... -.- and fuck the leo and rp that doesnt allow me to download my 6ps for marketing module for ut3... fuck them seriously! hopefully before my ut start i can get something and i dont have to really smoke all my way through... =(
sort of made some decision for the past days... perhaps... love is really like HUV... early recontract and recontact... =/ *yes i need a vacation like what justin said on my facebook wall... LOLS!* but it did make some sense... HUV when you get you dont know to use or not... if you spend it at least you get something out of it... but if you dont... once it expired... what you can do is just beg the cso or tm for another huv *which normally marketing dont approve... -.-* and cso will come telling you oh how about a $50BR -.- which not worth or fair because your huv is $100!!! and if you are lucky to have tm approval... they give you $100BR but its like they give depend on your CVL and tenure... =/ and doing an early upgrade... true that you get a new handphone earlier... you can show off... etc... but you spend extra $100 surcharge on early recontract plus you extended your 2 years contract with that one service provider... you cant PD the line or port out... cause if you do you will have to pay the penalty... *oh and how nice? -.- cause that cost you $300 at least...* but recontract? if you intending to get a new handphone... wait till the 21 months then... -.- like argh~ and by then you might not have the money? and you might not get HUV... *oh fed up... lols!*
just like love... if you never try you never know if it works... if it works you get a nice lover... but it doesnt harm too... and what about just a fling or you know? part time lover? they are all just like the early upgrade... haha! its not easy really... everything need the correct timing... like what i told nazzarei... which is true! oh love... im in searching... doesnt mean that i not longer wait... just that the devil inside me... seriously kill every single bit of the angel inside me... i dont know how... i dont know how... dont know how to conquer the devil right now... cause i just dont want to get hurt anymore... no no more...
side notes:
im both the devil and angel when facing
you... but right now with the decision i hold... is to destroy the angel side of my to make
you move... for that same reason twice... hell is what
you put me through... twice to be with him
you choose... is this the revenge? i ask you... yes or no its just
you...
true its me that cause
you gave up fighting... true its me that doesnt know cherish... its all too late to turn and correct everything that cant be undo... i used to need that chance from
you... but now hell no... cause its me that need to improve... but no not for
you...
devil gain and angel is in pain... now angel is no longer the main... cause i dont want all my effort to go down the drain... i ever thought that in front of
you... angel will be the only one survive... i make that through... but it ended its life on the same night too...
you... to
you... angel bid its goodbye and devil says hi... for right now i wouldnt be in
your eyes and neither
you are in my...
p.s: i believe the day that devil die is the day that we wouldnt cry...
2p.s: not giving up yet... until
you gave me
your answer...
last p.s: devil is the only one you see in me now... sorry...
