.Friday, August 28, 2009 ' 3:51 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
been dreaming about miki for the past few days... its weird... -.- but somehow i smile-d when the dream end... haha! anyway work has been up and down... lols... as usual i guess... and last night was the last day for nazzarei... =( how sad... this batch left only me in call centre... going be less fun and less people to talk to at work... but im glad that you know i still got my other friends at there... ^^ but its weird not to meet justin and fiza for supper like we did last week... -.- with all the crapping and watching of soccer plus disturbing... haha!
yesterdays k box rocks... with shuting... kor kor... shuting friend - kelvin and kelvins friend - xiaobing... LOLS! i swear xiaobing voice is power... which somehow reminds me of eneida... lot one after that... and damn!!! i need to master my jubeat!!! tio crash by a kid yesterday... -.- ok lah not crash by a kid cause i dont know how old she is and also im noob also!!! lols! manage to pass a few hard hard de song... woohoo~ happy... haha... and yesterday call sucks... sure drag down my cph... fuck... :x and suppose to meet her... to pass her the show... see her the last time and tell her how i really feel and wish to do with all the proper explanation than to type in blog and misunderstanding and etc... but oh well... guess it just meant to be...
nothing much to update... just rot a while more then work... suppose to go school/lab for fyp 2 but i sort of sprain my ankel... -.- it hurts... =( and i felt so bad cause i make the effort down to school/lab for fyp 2 on wednesday... hai... and i feel bad for not able to make it to bring didi for where got ghost movie... =( but argh! fuck him!!! cause he got his own entertainment!!! lols!!! and he is getting more like young adult... =)
side note:
250809 this feeling i got for eneida has been with me for a year... a feeling i never had for anyone yet... as i read through the past one years entries in her wordpress and in my both blog... i realised how sweet we first started out... yes theres pain... dilemma... confusion... but its still sweet even up till now with all the memories i shared with her... with all the effort we both putted in... especially from her... despites those hard time i putted her through... all the drama i created in her life... and the pain i made with all the broken promises and unforgiving behaviour... *sorry precious... i broke your heart together with the promise i first made to you...*
i thought this time it would turn out real and longer... but no... because on my end its just all too late... changes made... but eneida arent there to see these... all the impression my collegue sees including friends... but the one i wish to see the change i have just doesnt... prehaps because love is no longer there... or maybe... we just arent meant to be... this time to fate... i admit im defeated...
i didnt regret to be in this relationship with eneida... seriously i dont... maybe a little yes... regret i didnt behave the way im now in the past... regret not cherishing her and treating her well... understanding... yes that the thing i missed out... then again... its all too late... i will wait... still... but at the same time move on with my life... for that i dont want/wish to stuck as the old me anymore... waiting and moving on (as in making changes that kind of move on)... at the same time... dreaming still that one day eneida would return... and wishing her all the best with her love ones now... i know... this time they would last...
p.s: im sorry but i love
you...
2p.s: i really prefer admiring at miki at times with all the eye-candy feeling to at least for that moment make me forget the pain im going through now to get over me and eneidas relationship...
3p.s: this time round i no longer waiting silly-ly...
4p.s: thanks for the memories and being part of my life last time which made me grow to who im now...
last p.s: busy upcoming sept~ play and party and birthday~
