.Sunday, September 6, 2009 ' 1:49 PM Y
waiting for that my "last order"...
thursday was the day i dont know to be happy or sad... me and eneida have decided to let go... after the lunch and after her meet up with her boyfriend... i cried... because i told her that i wouldnt wait for her anymore... that moment i thanks shuting for being there for me... to see me cry like fuck... cause for that moment i feel that im just dead... i couldnt help but to hit myself against the wall which i havent been doing for so many years... up till now still hurt... physically but no... no more emotionally pain...
that same night after parting with shuting... went play with rhys and vicky and lele plus one of their friend... had a lot of brother talk with rhys... and that night i know kim... haha... she IS a nice girl... like what me and rhys have been keep talking about... lols! jitao funny... glad that i went play... cause like what shuting said... its time to chop off the tree and replant the whole forest... im glad that i can do that if not i dont know if theres a chance to know kim... =) didnt drink a lot that day... but reach home quite late... cause asked kim to go for breakfast after play... :x
friday was the last day for charlie jie jie... again i didnt manage to took photos with her... -.- never mind... shall ask her out next time when got the chance... =) after she left i realise how quiet the call centre is... -.- jitao not used to it... hai... and realise that miki is actually not sick but went to taiwan... lols! work still alright... but i swear i hate ruzita... argh!!! i know she have our interest in heart... but argh... perhaps just me who still cant adapt... argh~ working life... how bad...
leaving is part and parcel of life... this i have to admit... just like friends come and go... just didnt expect so many people leaving one by one... miki not around... charlie PD... kim flying off and sophia too... begin to wonder when will it be my turn... i want to fly fly too!!! haha... hopefully my birthday week or something... =/
p.s: i love the way we want love to be like...
2p.s: despite i miss you... i know this time i shouldnt be doing anything anymore...
last p.s: this wound is deeper than i expected...
